Living in the in between

Something I have done for the past eight years was written a story that I shared a couple of times a month with those I served with. It went out on Friday’s.

Two weeks ago, that came to an end. I was a casualty in a large layoff….restructure of sorts. I got the meeting request 20 minutes before (big first clue) and when it only includes the boss and president, you kind of have an idea what’s about to happen. In all of it, the greatest sadness was not being able to say goodbye to the staff and hundreds of volunteers I worked with. It was immediate, abrupt and sad. I loved what I did and who I did it with. In the end, I count it as a blessing for having spent 15 years serving and working in a ministry I so loved. Not many can say that.

This space I now live in, is the in between. In between what life looks like going from working 40 hours a week to looking for a job. The questions of what now and the white space in my days is both hard and good. You see, I live my life with a core belief that God has a purpose and will for my life. Each day I choose to walk towards that or away from it. Each unexpected twist isn’t anything He didn’t already not know. There is comfort for me in this and also a wrestling of sorts. What’s next?

I am also living this “in between” in my personal life. I have two kids in college and two kids starting junior high. Parenting both looks very different.

Being a last child, and later in life kid, also means my only living parent is older. With age comes life and health issues for anyone. Alongside my siblings we are doing our best to come alongside my dad in this “in between” stage. The balance of wanting him to enjoy all the independence he can while also advocating for him when he can’t.

Last week my husband and I celebrated our 25th wedding anniversary. It was sweet, memorable and also a reminder that these past years we have had to fight for it. We are “in between” a very hard few years and looking forward to dreaming new dreams and all that God has for us the next 25 years.

Living in this in between season of life is both a blessing but also requires determination. It’s my story right now and what I will be sharing about. The struggles and the celebrations, the mundane and extraordinary. The how-to’s and what not to do’s. This is my life. I invite you to come along for the ride and share if you think others can relate. My heart beats to encourage, inspire and even challenge you as you read along.

Living day to day-

Jennifer

P.S. As I learn my new voice, I’d love to hear what you might want to talk about. Email me at day2daywithjenn@gmail.com.

9 responses

  1. Kathy Jerman

    Beautiful, Jenn. My heart breaks for you. So sad and confusing why it was so abrupt with no way to say good bye. I’m so sorry. But God has an amazing new adventure for you that was planned all along! I can’t wait to see what He has in store for you and your family.
    Love you,
    Kathy Jerman

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    August 14, 2020 at 1:07 pm

  2. My heart aches for you sweet friend. I was able to make my own choice, and I still felt a gaping hole for months as I looked for new ways to serve. I am praying for you as I also am walking in a very in-between daily with a college student, a high school senior, and 2 parents with memory issues and health problems. I know God has us in the palm of his hands, but sometimes it’s hard to remember that in the day to day. Love you!

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    August 14, 2020 at 1:56 pm

  3. Sierra Dorman

    Hello my Friend! I am so thankful to hear your heart. The fact that we did not get to say goodbye officially is heartbreaking. I look forward to your next step.
    You are missed!
    Love you,
    Sierra D

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    August 14, 2020 at 3:40 pm

  4. Erica Alvarez

    We love and miss you, Jenn. Thanks for this timely encouragement. ❤

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    August 14, 2020 at 3:52 pm

  5. Sandy Hunt

    I want to thank you (as one of those “volunteers”) for the love and encouragement you shared with me over the years. It saddened me as well that the transition was so abrupt that it did not allow the luxury of saying not so much “goodbye” as “see you later.” Having gone through the in-betweens myself on several levels, I hope you will not hesitate to reach out at the very least, for a listening ear if you ever need one.

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    August 14, 2020 at 4:21 pm

  6. Britteney Barber

    I love you and and your heart and I LOVE LOVE LOVE your stories!

    I’m excited to see what God has in store for you next!

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    August 14, 2020 at 5:31 pm

  7. Tammy

    I have no doubt God is leading you to extraordinary new heights. Love you my friend.

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    August 14, 2020 at 8:59 pm

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